My Sucky Life

Almost a year since I've been on this. Approximately 265 days. Ages. And the last time, I was talking about the guy I fancied. Well, he's got a girlfriend now. Not me. His best friend asked me out, and I said no. Now he hardly ever talks to me. None of them do. I don't even care anymore. They're not worth it.

So, you may want to know why you've not heard from me (I know you don't). I have a new blog, on a different website. This one isn't for rants, it's for proper stories, for anyone to see. Terrifying, I know. I also use Tumblr as a way of sharing my crap, but no one reads it. If you're reading this, maybe you want to check them out;

My Tumblr- http://aravenwood.tumblr.com/

My Edublog- http://clairecalderglenexpression.edublogs.org/

Since I last wrote, a lot has happened. I won't tell you it all. You don't want my life story (or do you?), so I'll just tell you the highlights.

I finished a novel. Writing one, not reading. I've finished reading a lot of novels. Anyway, I wrote a 56 page story with chapters and everything. It didn't even take all that long. I was so proud of myself. That's the story that's currently being posted on my edublog, unless you're reading this after a year, then I'll have (hopefully) posted some other crap.

Also, I've been doing exams for the past couple of weeks, and have been forced to drop a subject. I chose graphics because, well, let's be honest here, I suck. At least I understand Biology a little bit, even if I'm technically failing a little bit.

Well, when I first started this post, I thought I'd be writing for hours, but this is barely 300 words. Oh, well. I guess my life is boring *dramatic sigh*. Oh well. That's why I write. My characters have sucky lives too, but they get to do something to prove themselves. I'm too lazy to prove myself.

Bye!!

Love Life

I have never been more confused in my entire life. "Why?" I hear you ask. Just give me a second, I'm getting to that.

As I think about the boy I love, I can't help but feel a tiny bit upset. He doesn't like me back. I've seen him flirting with another girl. Flirting, whether he wants to admit it or not.

Maybe someone else does like me, but they'll never tell me.

One of my best friends held my hand on a ghost train type ride, and I nearly screamed. Afterwards he told me it was because he was scared. I felt scared too, and I hate to say this, but it comforted me. It was the first time I had ever held a boy's hand, and I liked it.

So stressed!

Song of my Life

Recently, I heard this song, Lucky, by Jason Mraz and Connie Calliat. If you haven't heard it, here's a link for the lyric video;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8Hgp150Eno

Ok, so basically, it's about this man and woman who are singing about how their lives have changed since they started dating one another. They were best friends before, so naturally, their relationship was a lot better.
Anyway, I think I can relate to it because I have recently realised that I am in love with a boy in my class, who happens to be one of my best friends. We're pretty close, but we've started to drift apart. I want to ask him out, but I'm too big a wimp, and I know he doesn't feel the same way about me. I've never felt this way about anyone, but I know if I mention these feelings to him, it will pretty much destroy our friendship. I've never been in a relationship, and I know this shouldn't bother me, as I'm only 13 years old.
To let these feelings out, I've started writing songs about love, and how hard it is to be in love with someone who will never love you back. I've also started writing a few romance scenes in my stories. Here's one of them;

"She gazed longingly at his soft, full lips as he talked, silently begging him to lean foward and cupture her lips in his own. He would softly caress her cheek while she ran her own hand through his silky brown hair, then smoothly untie the bobble, freeing it. It would flow down his back like a waterfall, shining and glowing in the morning Sun."

I know. Soppy, right? But, it just came to me, and I had to write it down. I can never imagine myself doing this, so why can't I make my characters do it.
You know, maybe I'll tell him one day, or maybe he'll stumble across this page by accident, and realise that he's loved me this whole time. What? A girl can dream. Believe me, you'll know if he ever decides to ask me out. I'll keep you updated, my loyal fan.

Maybe I'm in love with the wrong guy. Maybe the boy who really loves me has been right in front of me this whole time, and I'm too blind to see it. Yeah right! Who in their right mind would be in love with ME? HA! Who am I kidding?

The Black Hole in my House

You see, I have this watch. A digital one that I happen to love. I wore it everyday, always fiddling with it. I took it off for PE, then back on as soon as I was in the changing rooms. It was probably one of my favourite possessions. One day I took it off because I had hurt my wrist and put the watch on the table. I forgot to put it back on until the next morning. It wasn't on the table and I had to wear this weird analogue watch with hands. After school, I searched the entire house for my watch, but I couldn't find it. I searched my bag and my jewellery box, but nothing. I have been looking for it for the past month, but I can't find it. I have developed a theory. Things always go missing in my house, so I have began searching for a black hole. It's the only thing I can come up with. There is no other explanation. Well, maybe the stuff is under the couch, but I've checked there 10 times. I knew I should have put a tracking device on it.